I feel I don't exist - I don't recognize myself in the mirror - like the pic I mentally have for myself is not the same as it is in the mirror. most of time I feel I don't belong to any one - and it still feels weird to have a son- I was told that  it was all new to me that's why - but it shouldn't be new after 2 years - I still think I'm 18 and it depresses me cuz I'm 26 now and it feels weird. growing old shouldn't be disappointing.